23rd September

 Little steps of Adventure amid PANDEMIC 

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It was a beautiful experience to view dark clouds moving from the top of the building liberating myself from my office chamber. 

The kites were flying in  a circle pattern, 

&

I enjoyed their enjoyment with a cup of tea, a lot of free oxygen around  and  story of chaiwala there. 

18th September

 Hello Nira 

Come on.

The morning is clean and bright. I found my little herb garden sending me fresh green smile. I saw fishes swimming and playing hide and seek game without any fear. But, look I am fearing. I am fearing the steps of Covid. I am fearing what wants Govt. to lock on. People around are crazy. They know merits of social distancing, use of mask,  frequent washing of hands . Alas! They are not using these simple method. This is the reason my fear is enhancing day after day.

Should I fear Nira? Or should I leave this reality and fly away to some safe place?

 Hey, I am jocking. I can not leave my job. Without job I will be poor. And society is cruel for Lakshmi chhada person.

So, let me draw a plan. Let me save my own life like any super woman.

With Rising sun

With the rising sun
Hope enters the earth
With well-being for all.
Don't go backward
You are the child of aspirations
Move forward
Step by step
To embrace bliss.

With rising sun

Birds chirp I listen

That penetrates the heart

And create peace in the mind

For a best beginning.

With rising sun

I look dreams get real

Karmic account attaches new karma

For new achievements.

I say 'pranam' 

To the rising sun

Enveloped with the sunshine.

Sparks-1

The path
We are walking together,
The life we are living together,
Can never upside down
For any foolish turn and twist,
As time passes like a river
With all purities and impurities
To make
Each day a golden day
And
Each night a dreamy land.

I am in my office chamber and enjoying the tea. What more a writer want? But amid everything comes sudden halt, something wrong,  something like negative thoughts and happiness seems like a dream. But time never stops. It passes with lots of hope and promises.
Amid everything
I am queen of my own land.
I am the creator and destroyer.
So what prevents me!
Let's walk with time, which is the ultimate friend,  philosopher and guide. 

Guide of the journey - 1

It was a feeling...
Hoping for the best.
I was in the land of nightmares,
In search of  a silver lining.
Yeah ...
I don't the looser.
I discovered tiny dew drops there
waiting...
with lot of colours .
I enjoyed
and wrote a verse.


He smiled. ..
I smiled back.
He said,
" never cry.
 If you will cry,
 I will leave . "
I asked, how will I stop it!
He answerd,  " just remember me and feel my presence. "
I discovered the unending journey and the bliss with Him.
Yes
 from that day I'm happy
And always hope for the best.

By Sarojini Pattayat.04/06/2014

The bird and the old book

The bird flew a little, perched over a branch of gooseberry tree. The branch trembled and settled. Some dry leafs fell down.
The murmurs of breeze she felt.
It was not new to Sulabha. Smile was dancing over her lips. She knows, it happens everywhere in the nature and what she observed was only a snapshot.
She sighed and looked towards the old book in her hand. She  again immersed in the pages of  the old book ,but felt somewhere a deep connection between the nature and the the words written.
Old book was not the singing bird. The bird was not the book. But she was flying with the old book and the bird from present to past and again to future.

Anger

it surprised me
how people changes
anger brusts
in the battle of Covid also.
over the horizon
still the single star
peeps to show
the ultimate path
to walk alone.

leaving  your zon
of turmoil,
turning to have
my abode of poetry
oh once good people,
live your days
in peace
as we are mortal.

pain brings poetry
I am thankful
but how long to endure!
one day it may burst
and I may be like you
in the battle
swimming in the ocean of anger.

Mantra

Life
Never stops.
And it is the responsibility
Of each one of us
To help it to go on.

To remain in the present
Is the mantra.
To enjoy the present
Is the weapon.

No past, no future.
Present is the king.

Life is
To experience,
To enjoy,
To win.

A cup of tea

A cup of tea,
After long days
In my office ,
Enough to forget
All the difficulties
In these days of pandemic.

Hmm...
I said,
Smiled lisurely
Studying the audit reports
Of last financial year.

The share market
Is  racing with volatile steps,
How much I have to invest!
In between wants and pandemic
I may or may not see the next day sun,
Or may with my immunities could cross the situation. ..
Whatever may be
The cup of tea have poured
Inspiring positives,
To fly ,
And fly over everything ...
As I am the best creation of God
To face anything.


Happy writing 

Levels of resistance

How many days to wait!
Waiting seems endless. ..
Can't I again ...
The impossible thoughts mind creates and genuine replies conscience gives. In between 'I',the 'I'entity wishes to follow an easy road.
But, as the situation is serious following the rules of Government can give safety, that each one to obey.

My experience

I talked with my helping maid  in ehe evening to join the duty from tomorrow. But, my conscious mind directed to discuss the issue with my husband.  I discussed and tried to impress him by saying that, I can't do the work anymore and I may fall ill working every day. My husband denied.  First I felt sad.  But, when I think about this  situation of contamination I am feeling ' he is right'.

Sometime man becomes weak.
Doing all work in a phased manner will help a lot. But breaking social distance can bring intolerable events.

Be happy
Stay safe
Work is worship.
Happy writing

A scene

It was late morning and the nature was in its beauty to heal everything around. 
But, the part of life of Mrs Kar was about to bring some sad stories. 
She could hear the gleeful talks of Mr Kar not far from her. She could even heard the kissing sound of her husband amid talking duration in mobile.  She could imagine the lovely lady in the other side of the mobile phone.She looked at her husband.  She felt little sad looking at the sluggish face of her aged husband. She was truely felt sorry for her husband.
She did not want to interrupt his joy of feeling young. "Let him do what he wishes.
Life she felt uncertain in such pandemic situation. If he is happy, why should she interfere?"She thought. 
She just told," Dear husband,  do you need a cup of coffee ?"
"Yeah."Mr Kar responded.
She smiled and went to kitchen to prepare coffee.

Happy writing 
Stay safe.

Mind

Mind each time chooses
An easy way,
But that's not the way
I should walk.
Before putting my feet
I have to pause and think
Every aspect ,
Not only from my experiences,
But from other's experience too.

The world is great
And it's history everywhere
Written,
The stories I should know
The knowledge I should gain
Before beginning of my karma.

Mind encourages
To play an easy role
That's I should argue
before participating..

So,
Oh my dear soul
Take the way of swadhyaya,
The techniques of self talk
In some lisure,
Each moment should be the moment of discussion with the mind,
As mind also need a friend
And it is not the foe.

***********************

Stay safe
Happy writing

It is all about the life

It is all about the life.
Looking towards the closed temples,churches, mosques,
I amazed and felt the true dwelling of God
not anywhere,but deeper inside the heart
where mind plays the role of priest.
As everywhere at present silence prevails,  I should calm down my mind and create myself the abode of Shanti,  and accept this moment as the precious and surprised gift from Him.
The fear most be avoided as He is with us.
Let's fight the battle ,as this is the real Kurukshetra and God remains at such volitile moments.

Staying in the home and social distancing even among each member of family is the magic vaccination everyone most feel.

Happy writing.

All days are not same

The morning was usual with golden paint over the eastern sky. It was not doubt beautiful and the adding of chatters of birds was enough from nature to inspire me. I prepared herbal tea, not using tea leaf, but using tulsi leaf, tez patta, ginger. It helped me to feel inspired for taking a flight and dive into the day work and boost energy to my mind to think positive.
But, alas, my mind was travelling in the dream I had in the last night.
   The dream was not good. It was a dream of two friends. I saw them laughing and cooperating each other in their each work. But, somehow a friend wanted to be rich and famous without any hard work. He became a cheater. He cheated his friend,  acquired his business and left him.

The dream was shattering my mindset.  Yes, might be people like such living in this world. I tried to calm down my mind saying,  "don't worry. It was a dream. "But my religion says about last life and rebirth . Might be somewhere someone have cheated me in my last innumberable births, and now I am experiencing the pain again.  I argued and argued with my mind and said it to use the "forgive and forget ",technique.
I went outside to my little courtyard and looked at the sky, and cried, " oh blue, unending sky. I am forgiving the friend whoever he or she may be, and wherever he or she is now. And I am forgetting whatever he or she deed to me." Then suddenly I found myself relaxed and energized.
Life is such a mystery, a riddle. Civilization has come and vanished here ,no one have true record.  Mind is the deadly enemy and loveliest friend who remains within us to guard and also to destroy.
So, as the  most clever creation of God, life is what we can create and change. And the tool of forgiveness seems to be best tool to be happy and peaceful.

Happy writing

Scattered flowers of one morning

Under the wild tree,flowers were scattered and I felt the nature had decorated them with an unique style. The street was silent except the dogs playing their hide seek game. It was morning.
After lock down I was trying to have my normal life again to flourish with bustle. I observed the changed habits of people maintaining social distance. The Covid 19 taught them the truth of death and life. "How will be the life", I thought walking.
"Renu", someone was calling.  I looked back. A young man with mask was coming.  I was in mask also. I smiled myself as he was a strenger to me.
He came and asked, "you did not call back, why?"
"I am not Renu, Mr."
"Sorry, really sorry. I was waiting her  and thought you as Renu. Sorry."
I looked at his eyes and found grief.
"It's okay", I said and moved away.

I found him looking towards the scattered flowers under the wild tree.

Changing manner

We were talking to each other, discussing about a new project,
But, doubting each other , as the virus we can't see, might be somewhere...
With someone. ..
I couldn't not bear more, and said 'bye' with a strict instruction to discuss in mobile phone .
Later,
 I grumbled for my rudeness.
Yet felt safe.
What more could I do, except strict order!
The rain was raining constantly,
And I was feeling rain as a rain of anger.
My city was silent like a sanyashi. 

Not a story

"Why are you going to office? "
Rohit said. His office is closed.  I know he is feeling boredom.
"I am in health sector.  I can't avoid.  I have to face the situation. " I replied.
The street was lonely. Whoever was out, all have to use mask. Using sanitizer is becoming the habit. My driver, asked "Ma'am,  when such thing will over."
I looked at him and replied, " Don't know. "
He became silent.

In the office I found people,  not so happy.  I opened my laptop. Rohit had sent a photograph of his college days adventure and friends.  I looked at the photograph.  Rohit was in his blue denim and a white shirt. His face was full of laughter in the photograph. All friends were enjoying their adventure trip near Himalayas. I replied.  "Rohit,  why are you not writing? In your college days you won many awards for your fantasy fiction. Dive into it again and forget your depression. " Rohit replied,  "Hmm. But I fear I have forgot all these things."
"Write about your college friend,  about our marriage,  about our son and daughter who are now in their work place . Our children will be happy reading your story Rohit.Write for me."
"He send back a smiley. "
I smiled looking at his smiley.
The thought of Covid 19 vanished from my mind.

 I thanked my mind to give a perfect plan to my Rohit.
Life is like this and we have to face. Anything can happen and anything we can  cross.

The busy hour

It is not the habit,but it happens. Thoughts jumble in busy hour and mind vibrates like a careless boy to do everything at one point of time.
In busy hour that's why sense of discipline can be used to remain stable and do work one after another using the technique, important work first.
Everything is important in life. So making a plan is so important to give time for each work.
So,
Be busy,
Be happy,
Be peaceful and stable.

Happy writing 

An old poem

 Grand ma
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Today the sky
full of floating  cloud
reminds me
the days of my grand ma
my favorite story teller
a great discoverer
of mystic world
the painter of a painting
full of angels and ghost.
She always chose
a plot
from the outer world
that i love,believe
and tremble in fear.
The twinkling star of the night
also stunned
and listen her
the moon obey her command
and hide her face
to make me sleep
in her warm and secured lap.
The days are gone,
now i am waiting
my grand children
to listen me
and make me feel
the joy of life
and step forward
to be the brightest star
of the dark night
to glitter always
and show them
the path to achieve and
face hurdles and success.

by sarojini pattayat 27/04/2013

Fountain of the dream

It was a beautiful fountain amid the deep forest in the world of silence. My dream  took me there unexpectedly to feel the magic and mystery. It was a great journey from realistic to unrealistic  and it was beyond my control.
" Can anyone control the dream?  No. "
Thus  my role was to go there.

×××××

I was in my room shivering.  I felt the mysterious dream. I was in fever. I wanted to drink water. A glass of water appeared from nowhere.  I did not think how it appeared.  I took and sipped.  I tasted bitter, yet I drank.

××××

It was morning warm and acceptable.  I was in my room fresh and happy like a charming song. "Thank God," I said. Yet dream was there and I was feeling it.

Vibrations unique

This morning
Full of vibrations
Unique and peaceful.
My pet parrots are
Clean,and peaceful
In their swinging cages.
I heard koyel's coo,
His presence I felt
In my heart and His love enveloped my worries.
Inside the present pandemic situation, He is with us invisibly.
Nothing to worry.
No one is the master of this earth.
He will fight and save this world.
From deeper a voice most raise, as a prayer for Him to help.
He is fighting and we should do our duty like worship to add our faith to His power.
To help humanity most be
Our mantra.
No one can play game
With His beautiful creation.
Note- Life never a bed of roses. Each civilization has faced their unique problem.  So, now with our devotion to work we will fight the situation by social distancing and using mask. Our peasants should plough their field, our industries should finish their work, we should be self sufficient inside everything maintaining the social distance. Without cooking, how can I expect food on my table. Our discipline has strength to save us and fight this unusual situation.
Happy writing.
Stay safe.

Prathna, Prayer

Almighty Kamal Nayan has given me a perfect and healthy body, a peaceful and beautiful mind,time to take rest and think about the reasons of life,a safe home.
  After that what may be my wants!
He is doing what is good and perfect for me.
My work is to follow His voice that vibrates deeper in my heart and mind.
My sole work is to think before doing any karma, talk and dicuss with Him.
He is kind and good to give me everything basic. What is my necessities to look at other and feel jealousy inside heart. My duty is to keep going, doing the karmas I have given to do.
Other things are illussion to see, feel, enjoy and walk ahead and not to entangle with them unnecessarily.
Peace remains deeper inside that I should explore to remain stable in every situation performing my karmas.
He remains always in close vicinity.
My work is to know Him and love Him.
He is the ocean of Love. He is all Powerful.
He is the Father, the Friend,  The only Lover who never leave.

Happy writing

Seed of war

 They devour for
thrill.
May it be war or stock exchange,
They plant it.
' cause,
They are keen to be immortal,
In history,
In parable,
In myth....
In the technology,scientific and logic.
What about the people,who toils in sweats and blood??
Their fate dangle in the hand of unseen in a dark corner.

Covid 19 and the morning

It is not the time
 To fear.
It is the time
to face.
Situation comes
 and it will pass away.
Discipline is necessary
to endure the hazards ,
of situation.
This process is called,
 achievement.
 You have to enjoy
 the karmas ,
and each moment of karmas.
 Feeling the
vibrations of karmas,
 deeper ...
can be the mantra ,
to feel that ,
you are a blessed one.

Now I am ,
enjoying the rain,
the thunders...
 and enjoying the atmosphere,
 of countryside,
 in the city,
silent and serene.
Is not it  the gift,
 the gift that a rishi, a muni, a sanyashi achieves
after constant struggle and focus!

     The sky is clouded,
and rain is cleaning
 the whole city,
patiently. 
The sound of rain
 I can feel ...
and the aroma of earth
is giving immense
 pleasure.

    It is the time,
of going within...
 deeper and deeper
 and be stable,
to understand
 the situation.

Stay safe
 and positive.
Cross over
the multiplying depression
 and anger.

Happy writing

For a friend

Walking in the sun
Talking with the breeze
smelling the morning
remembering you
everything
in my time
already
gifted me the life.
Where are you
at present?
In deep slumber
or in the dream land
escaping me,
my friendship here
singing the song of grief
inside a modern art gallery
to recognize your painting
of friendship.

24/04/2013

The chirps

 

Summer
is gliding through the koyel's coo,
and of course aroma of jasmine all over,
In my dream also.

My blurring eyes did not miss the coolness of season passing by with hot glare.
Under the slanting sun brown bird was collecting gooseberry sticks to knit its nest.

Compassion everywhere I felt in my tiny heart:
Can I ever deny nature's heal?
It's eternal to support life in each season and stage.

I glared at the sky with tears of love.

Moss wall

Little ahead

right before the curve of the remote building a moss wall of old film hall

standing there from ages carrying the name of my loving stars.

Now the film hall is closed.

People say the place is projected for a gorgeous hotel,

But, I remember the days how we used to flee from high school to enjoy the movie.

The kite is soaring high and high,and time is galloping like a perfect palomino.

Yes, I am there

Racing ...

Swearing for a matching life,

Moss wall is there ,a dumb witness of my childhood.

Covid 19

Morning
It is not what I have ever wished about the world. The world is mostly in lockdown. Covid 19 have mostly engrossed the world.
I amazed. How the Creator of this beautiful world is still silent and not protecting the people and make this world zero covid 19. I remained in fear and in war like situation constantly, but now have crossed the bar of tolerance to face the situation first by accepting this. With all preventive majors I have to enjoy the life, look around the changing nature and enjoy the life as the blessings of Him. It is necessary.  "Fighting with a virus, invisible " is at present the policy of each nation,  each people. Living with the situation and walking ahead with progessive ideas and positive thought should be my motto. The unity of whole world forgetting all fights, battles is the demand of prevailing time.
I salutes the doctor,  the nurses,  the policy  makers, the cleaning persons,  each one who are facing the situation and wishing to remain safe with their family.
All are the children of God.
Stay at home, if you have no important role to perform and face the situation is the only mantra.
Connect to God in silent.
Relax your mind with positive thoughts.
Help each other.
Listen more before putting your argument.
Take care
Happy writing.

He is there

The city,
 hot with April sun rays,
but somehow cool for the fear
Have closed doors ,
 But I apprehend , closed minds are also thriving there
 not good for the mother earth,
and for the children of God.

He is there
 and showing the way
to close the door,
not the mind,
not the conscience.

He is there
 inspiring all His children
 to allow sweet and cool breez
of positiveness.

Staying stable,
 in every battle
is the strength,
 He has put within us.

He is there
 to punish the soul
 who have tried
 to disturb His creation.

Thus,
Be strong
and open your mind
 to remain calm
 in each step of battle. 

Destiny

Destiny in your hand
As you have created
Carefully or carelessly
In the kingdom of thoughts
Deeper in your mind.

Consciously change
If you have put negatives
With positive and possible points.

Our creator have put
Inside us the power
To change our destiny.

Just pause, think
And walk ahead,
This world is yours'. 

Journal, Self talk -4

It is necessary
To remain in home
To avoid that flue
And thank God,
For His love.

Journal, Self talk-3

The evening.
 I found my old poetry to share.
Time is passing and now I am in 2020 facing lockdown, shortdown.
Ah! I am really thinking about the immunity and stamina I had in long past.
Okay,  enjoy the poem. I myself enjoyed it.

You, my Inspiration
---------------
Your sweet talk
glitters whole day in my heart
like a star I love
in the darkness
that shows me path
to crate a purpose in life,
and make plan to be successful.
You are
my sole inspiration;
keeping my hand in your hand
feeling the warmth of your thought
listening the music of your passionate heart
I think no difference
 between you and me.

Believe me,
I'm yours
in every birth
to walk side by side
unveiling the mysteries and riddles.

by sarojini pattayat.05/04/2013

Journal, Self talk-2

After long days...
 in the evening I felt ,
my courtyard, little patch of sky above
 and the breeze
 that was dancing around 
had peace.
 I felt,
 my thought process 
was changing with positive vibrations.
 With little steps
 Again...
 I could feel the dreams in me .

Journal, Self talk-1

It was evening, yes, announcement I heard on corfew, to play a defence game,
Against Covid 19.
Loving the game and living the lockdown. 
Yes, a challenge for humanity, like all such fantasy movie already we have seen and where battle ends saving the people.

In this game, in reality  each one of us the character, and no specific medicine except advices to increase immunity power and make social distance.
In the evening  I felt the  teasing smile of trees, herbs, birds, insects  around.  
I gasped. 

I heard the siran of police vehicle in the far away road,
I dived into my home,
Closed the door and window, 
Not fearing them, but for social distance and their teasing smile. 

ସଂଘର୍ଷ COVID 19

ସ୍ବପ୍ନ ଦେଖୁଥିଲି।
ମୋ ସାମ୍ନାରେ ବସିଥିବା ଲୋକଟି ହଠାତ୍ କାଶିଲା,
କାଶି କାଶି ବେହାଲ ହେଉଥିଲା।
ମୁଁ ତାକୁ ହାତଠାରି ଇସାରା କଲି ଚାଲିଯାଅ ବୋଲି।
ସେ ମୋଟେ ଗଲାନାହିଁ।
ମୋ ଆଖି ଖୋଲିଲା,
ସୁନ୍ସାନ୍ ଚାରିପାଖ,
ମୁଁ କାଶିକାଶି ନିଜେହିଁ ନୟାନ୍ତ ହେଉଥିଲି ।

In dream also Covid is disturbing.  We should obey the direction of our Govt. & maintain social distance. We are lucky enough to have internet. Keep emotional connection with friend and family. Read your dream book or watch your dream movie. Be calm and take right decision at right time.

NOT LOCKDOWN, BUT...

It is the time for self talk and self assesment. The climate here in Bhubaneswar is dry and hot. No need to go outside and dive into the crowd. People, yes all know to live alone. We all are lucky enough to be here in this earth with the facilities of internet and on line shopping.  It is the moment to work from home and work beyond any bondage of routine.  Time is now teaching us the love to ourselves and family and be prompt not to hide any types of  hardship of our body and mind. Time here have arrived to think and rethink everything with much importance.  As the most amazing creation of God we can fight to survive only following discipline.
Save Earth
Save Nature
Save Human being
Stay safe and healthy.

SUMMER GALE, (image of past years)

Yesterday by early summer gale the hot climate of Bhubaneswar changed a little. But, my courtyard filled up with dry leafs. Today one of my colleague described his experience how he was feeling during landing of plane in Bhubaneswar airport. He was returning from Chhenai at that time after visiting his son.

Amid the summer gale
 and lightening ,last eve
plane was trapped
with his lonely thoughts
dry leafs piled in the courtyard.

Friend

Yes,
He is the Friend.
Talk to yourself,  who is with you,
always.
Find Him.
He is with you.
He, your strength,  your guide in troubled water.
Yes,
You can find Him.
Just talk yourself.
He is closer to your heart to reply you at anytime and anywhere.
He is the Friend,
awesome, almeighty,  and the only one whom you can believe. 

In problems

Gogyoshibun

 In problems

  While analysing day to day problems in silence I surprised. Each problem is just an adventure. But, it is adventure for them who walks on and on , face the reality. Interesting thing is each problem has solution inside it.

Season stops their influence
in problems. ..
you remain with your self
alone  to focus and find
the way for an adventure .

Shrimati Sarojini Pattayat

It is a flue

Yes. But we have to be careful. The slogans of Government of each country to maintain social distance,  we should follow. We are the most intelligent creation of God. Ask yourself,  what is harm to be disciplined. Life is very important. We should take care of ourselves and family following each rule to win over this. Let's love life and this world. Let's make this world pollution free. Let's take diet to increase our immunity. Don't be  panic. Be calm. We are fighting with an invisible enemy. So we have to develop our invisible strength by positive thoughts and good diet.

Take care

You are the awesome fighter

You will definitely think about the heading of my writing. Truly I am writing for my joy in such pandemic situation.  I am writing 'cause it will make me calm. Whole day I was listening Bhagbat Gita. Amid the great battle Arjun was in dilemma.  He was lucky enough to have a friend like Shri Krishna. The important point of whole conversation was how to achieve calmness,  peace and how to put yourself in the actions without any attachment,  and hope for the result.  We have to act ,may it be from mind ,thought or body. We can not stop our action.  But when our action will be free from ego, attachment and the dream of results it can be pure. SHRI Krishna inspired to focus over the action and joys of doing something.  And now in such battle like situation calmness can strengthen our inner Self to be discipline and think right thing.

Have a good and safe day.
Be calm and peaceful. 

the silence

amid silence city
fear of covid-19
almost engrosses the mind
with different images
of apprehensions.

its good to be brave
but, what about them
who have played such game
over human emotions!

most of the time
i have failed to know human being
really what they want!